October 2010
4 posts
And in the end... It was all too much.
Go ahead and unfollow me now guys.
I AM OUTTA HERE.
This is me... Wanting to die.
“Yeah, just a trim. Bangs should still be at eye brow level.”
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT?
MEMORY OVERLOAD
I really should go through my computer and clean out all these pictures. But they’re memories. I just can’t bring myself to do it. This one was taken by a Miss Dianna Marie Coleman. It’s one of her favorites. Mine too. Do I miss it? Yes. Him? Not so much. I miss love. I miss it so fucking much. It seems that lately more and more things remind me of the good times. Of the boy I...
So real quick...
On my way home from work (going about 85 mph) I was on the phone with Aubrey when I noticed a car booking it behind me. I put the phone down so I could change lanes and let this mofo pass me up. They don’t. They kinda pull up beside me and TURNS OUT IT’S FUCKING HIGHWAY PATROL.
I started to freak out because I JUST paid off my speeding ticket and I seriously cannot get another ticket...
September 2010
6 posts
glaube mir bitte: So. I did a lot of thinking last... →
loveliebelove:
So. I did a lot of thinking last night. About work, friends.. basically my entire life at the moment, and I realized I’m still stuck in the past. What happened months ago doesn’t matter anymore. I got screwed over by some pretty selfish people. So what? That’s life. Get over it. I’ve been sitting…
It’s all my fault… D: Kati, please just love meeee.
Day 4: The best thing to happen to you this week.
So the week’s almost over. And not gonna lie Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday were lowkey shitty. But fucking Wednesday morning was where the magic all started. Woke up loving life after realizing I need to DGAF about everything the previous night. Texts from loved ones. Visited Rice at werk. Brought him froyo. Watched him build a bike. Had lunch and a nice little chat with Jules. Went to...
Day 1: The person you like and why you like them.
Bryce Rogalski.
Where to even start. Long before we ever met I thought you were cute. Every Friday morning when you came to get the prints from the theater. Looking fine as hell. Haha. You were “my boyfriend from across the street” despite us never having an actual conversation. Then when we took on some of the 6’s employees we had some mutual friends. I learned your name. And...
He'll never change.
Him: And honestly the more i think about it, i was never really genuinely happy, this is the high point of my life i guess...
Her: Wow. Your pathetic. You know it takes more balls to TELL THE TRUTH then it does to LIE.
Him: Yeah i didn't have any...
Her: You mean DONT...Heres the difference. Didnt > Past tense. Dont > Present tense.
Him: Huh?
Her: YOU HAVE NO BALLS NOW! Learn to tell the truth. You were happy with her. Who are you trying to kid?
Him: Sure there were good times, but it wasn't a continues flow of happiness, and you know that...
Her: What are you trying to accomplish by this James?
Him: I don't really know to be honest...
Her: I mean what? Are you trying to tell me you never loved her and werent happy and was a total waste of time. Huh?
Him: No I loved her. I didn't want it to end back then. I just want you to know I'm not the same person. But I don't know if it matters at this point.
Her: Again. What are you trying to accomplish with this?
Him: Again. I don't really know
Her: ....
Him: If you want me to be honest I guess I just miss you.
Her: Why would you miss me now?
Him: I just do...
Her: Okay?
Him: Yeah...
(this is where I love her forever and ever)
Her: Well its to late for any type of friendship James. You fucked up. You lied. Accused. And lied more. And now m happy without you anywhere close to my life. I'm engaged now. Starting a new amazing beautiful life with a fiance worth bragging about. So do us all a favor and find someone else to lie to. And stay the fuck away from Brittanie. Dont talk to her. Dont talk about her. And dont think about her.
Him: Ok
It's unbelievable that he claims he's a different person and that he's changed. When this is what he been doing for years with her. Only this time her and I are friends and I have concrete evidence to show everyone that you're the same little boy, starved for attention. Same liar who denies everything when bad rumors start popping up about him to make himself look good. Paint the person coming out with the truth as a liar. Admit to everything over a year later. Take it back the next morning. Still call everyone else liars. Then call the person who only tried to tell the truth and apologize for everything. This is exactly what you're doing with Seren. Too bad everyone sees right through your shit now. Now I can say I feel sorry for you. Cause you just like fucking yourself over. I just like watching.
Day Ten: One confession.
I confess… I’m over it.
So I guess I can finally say...
“My boyfriend cheated on me.” Cause before I would have to say “he accidentally cheated on me” since he claimed it was all the other girl’s fault. That she invited herself over, she wanted to go upstairs, and she kissed him. But no. Cheating takes two. And he instigated everything. He fucked me over. He fucked Kayla over. And now he has no place in my life anymore. I...
August 2010
3 posts
Bestfriend.
aubreyb:
I want you to be happy. It breaks my heart every time you get sad like this because you don’t deserve this at ALL. You’ve put up with so much and you deserve to be euphoric. I hate every guy that causes you pain. I want to go Salt on their ass.
I love you, and please never forget that.<3
As long as I have this girl.^ I don’t need anyone else.
Dear Me,
This is it. I can’t believe it’s been 30 days since I started this thing. Time really flew. I guess I’ll start off by saying that when I started this challenge I thought writing a letter to myself would be kinda dumb. But it was somewhere around like the 9th letter that I understood why. Lately I’ve been having a hard time expressing my feelings. Let alone recognizing what...
Dear Kati and Dianna,
Don’t hate me for writing this letter to you guys. This is the one I write to someone I wish I could tell everything but are too afraid. It’s not because I don’t trust you guys or that I’m afraid you’ll tell. I’m scared that you’ll judge me and it’ll compromise our friendship. What we have is so amazing and I would never take the chance of throwing a...
July 2010
23 posts
Dear Aubrey (again),
Haha. You are the person who has changed my life. Definitely. I used to be this good girl with morals. I used to be innocent and naive and stupid. Then senior year rolled around and you turned me into a super sarcastic, manipulative bitch. But that’s ok. Haha. Because I love the person I am, and I love the person you are. We completely 100% accept each other and I am just the luckiest person...
Dear Bryce,
You are in fact the last person I made a pinky promise with… Though I cannot remember what it is for the life of me. Hahaha. I remember it was in passing and kinda pointless, but I’m sure I’ll keep it.
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Brittanie,
aubreyb:
Life is like a donut. And YOU are my jelly.
Love,
Aubrey
I love this girl. You guys seriously have no idea.
Dear little mermaid,
I’m not entirely sure if you’re going through tough times right now. I feel like you might. But I’m writing this letter to tell you that there’s really nothing to stress over. Everything about you is changing. It’s a good thing too. I can see it. Things will get better and when they do everything will be so amazing. So keep on keeping on little mermaid. I...
So today...
Felt like a dream. Like I could have woken up at any moment and none of that would have been real. And now as I grow more and more tired I realize that as soon as I fall asleep… I’m going to wake up.
OR! This could be like Inception and I’m about to have my dream within a dream. (highly unlikely)
Nothing’s gonna be the same anymore. And I miss certain people already.
Dear Aubrey,
After much much thinking I have decided that I cannot pick my favorite memory. You’ve given me too many. Haha. So this letter is for you. Because 7th grade-now and forever will always be filled with my favorite memories. Thanks for being my bestfriend. ♥ I love youuu.
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Leto,
I KINDA want to give you a second chance. Like at a friendship you know? Cause you sucked the 1st time round. But I’m thinking too much damage has been done and bringing you back into my life would be a bad decision. I’m happy that you’re happy. Don’t want to cause anymore drama. But it is a nice thought that maybe years down the road we’ll be friends again.
...
Kayluh Sunshine: Dear Ritt →
With age comes wisdom, and with wisdom comes power. Take the tragety of your past relationship with James and learn from it. Don’t say you proabably won’t ever love that way again. Love is behind every corner. Just smile, be yourself and don’t go looking for love and true, HONEST, love will find…
I’m in love with Kayla.
Dear James,
Here’s another letter for you. Because you did in fact break my heart the worst. To the point where I can’t even see myself loving anymore for a while if not ever again. My love for you was the strongest and purest. And I’ll never be able to experience that again. But that’s life you know?
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Dianna,
How perfect is it that I have to write a letter to someone who isn’t in my state/country, and you’re in Hawaii! :] I hope you’re having TONS of fun. Cause you deserve it. Buy me a lei. And don’t come back until you’re tan. I love you!
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Girlfriend,
Yes that’s right. You’re the person I miss the most! ♥ You live too far away and I haven’t seen you let alone actually hung out with you in ages. :[ I might have to plan another spur of the moment trip to Vegas. I lave you!
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Mom,
Yes, I’m drifting away from you. No, I don’t mind.
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear Kayla,
Even though everything between us is all hunky-dory now, I still think about the past from time to time. This is the letter I write to someone who I wish could forgive me. Forgive me for not being a best friend and picking up on the fact that James was leading you on. Forgive me for not even realizing how you felt. For my siding with James. Cause boys come and go, but girlfriends can last forever....
Dear Dad,
This is the letter I write to someone I don’t talk to as much as I’d like. Even though we live in the same house, we just don’t talk as much anymore. Maybe when summer’s over and I’m not always out of the house we’ll talk more. I’m sorry Dad. I love you so much.
Sincerely,
Brittanie
Dear James Friedman,
This is a little awkward writing a letter to the person who has caused me the most pain in my life, and he’s following me on Tumblr. But I’m sure you already know that you’ve caused me the most pain James. Hands down. You know I NEVER used to cry. Like ever. You changed me. I cry over everything now. Every little thing reminds me of the past that I can’t seem to get over....
Dear Adam,
This is the letter I write to an ex. Since I’m saving my most recent one for other letters down the line, and I don’t count the 2 other guys even as my boyfriend, this is for you. Not only are you my ex, but you were my first boyfriend. My first kiss. First guy I held hands with. You know, all that hard core shit we do in middle school? We were what, like 11 or 12? What a joke. Haha....
Dear Dreams,
You and I have a love-hate relationship I feel. Sometimes you make me so incredibly happy that I never want to leave you, and others not so much. I always wonder what you guys mean. If what you show me is what I subconsciously feel, or just random visions. You are so mysterious… wonderful, horrible, and amazing. And I’m glad I have you. You are my escape from my mostly drama filled...
Yep. I don't know what I'm doing.
Brittanie I really have no reason for writing this message other than i can’t stop thinking about you. I wish i could go back and have the attitude that I have today. I would do anything for that. I’m so worried Brittanie, so worried that you will never love me again, and i’m scared that you will stop caring when you are the world to me. I just can’t stop thinking...
What the fuck am I doing?
I have no idea.
Dear Parents,
Mom. I don’t have a whole lot to say to you. Cause honestly, I don’t really like you. I’d be perfectly fine with not talking or seeing you for long looooong periods of time. Which is kinda what I’m doing now. You’ve just never been a good example for me, and I think it’d be better this way. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for what you did to Dad...
Dear Nick,
This is the letter I’m supposed to write to my crush. I guess you’re it. Cause I really don’t think of the other 3 guys as my crush. I think a crush is more one-sided and a secret. A crush is something that isn’t returned, therefore either remaining a crush or just dissolving into nothing. And for some reason I still look at you and get butterflies. It’s fucking...
Dear Aubrey Crespo Bayoneta,
Where do I even begin? You are my bestfriend. You always have been, always will be. We’ve made bestfriend one word. We’ve made it each other’s names. Literally. We rarely call each other by our names. And I love it. I cherish our friendship more than anything else I have in my life. Cause without you I probably would have died. You have helped me with so much. Everyday I think to myself, “Wow, I’m...
I want to love you... I really do.
But right now I just can’t. And I’m sorry.
June 2010
2 posts
Really guys?
Is this what we’ve become? After everything we went through as friends, its come to this? Petty insults and name calling and trash-talking me behind my back? Really? Because I thought you guys were better than that. You guys were my closest friends. I trusted you with everything. Showed you sides of me that I hide from nearly all others. Welcomed you into my life with open arms, and...