Brittanie

I really have no reason for writing this message other than i can’t stop thinking about you. I wish i could go back and have the attitude that I have today. I would do anything for that. I’m so worried Brittanie, so worried that you will never love me again, and i’m scared that you will stop caring when you are the world to me. I just can’t stop thinking about the days when you were so happy. When you use to smile at me just because I was there, and when you were so committed to me that no other person could have broken us. I can’t believe that I was so stupid to let you slip away from me. I am just so desperate now. Not only for myself but for you. I want to see you love and care again. I just want to see you happy like you use to be. You deserve to be happy and i know one day you will be.

Brittanie, i know i treated you wrong, but I can’t believe that the only thing we were meant to be was a lesson. The love that you had for me, and the love that i have for you is to strong. I’m not a boy anymore who doesn’t know what love is. I’m a committed man who wants to sweep you off your feet, because you deserve it, especially from me Brittanie. I ready to be in a true and serious relationship that is filled with truth and love. And i know that I can live up to that.

I also can’t stop thinking about what you wanted. You wanted to marry me, start a family with me, until death do us part. And now I can’t believe how much i want that. I use to be your one and only, your knight in shining armor if you will. I and want to be that special to you again.

I know there is a part of you deep down inside of you that still loves and cares as much as you did before, but i feel like i covered it up with all my lies and wrong doings to the point where you can’t see it anymore, but others do. I want to help uncover what is so truly beautiful in you, your ability to love, trust and care so strongly. And i will never take that for granted again.

You deserve so much from me Brittanie. You deserve me to wait for you and that is the only that i can do at this point. I have promise that I made that i have to keep, and I know you will be happy when I can live up to them. Just please know that I am a different person than i use to be, and that I love you with all my heart. I will talk to you soon Bubs.

Love, James